Mostly I just want to start this by saying a huge-ass thank you to you...!!!
I really can't say enough "thank you's" because your continued support over the last decade has meant the absolute world to me, and to my family.
I believe that social media creates this lie that if you're not posting - you don't exist;
we are so inundated with fast-paced content most of our day, that it's so easy to slip through the meta cracks [god forbid]. and alas, it is unfortunately what I feel I've done over the last year, and I am truly sorry for that; It's not you - it's totally me.
I lost a lot of myself in motherhood. in wifehood. in sisterhood. in all walks of life. while the pieces are slowly finding their way back together, I'm definitely not whole. After 2020 I constantly asked myself, "How am I expected to put my entire heart into this work for others, when I felt so broken myself...?".
after struggling with postpartum depression, loss trauma, untreated ADHD and a very surprising recent Autism diagnosis! ...I DECIDED TO TAKE A BIG STEP BACK from my career TO FOCUS ON my dwindling MENTAL HEALTH. This was hands-down the best move I could have made! I'm on my way to understanding my world again, which also means reflecting on how my business runs and how my clientele could potentially shift due to all of this change. Full transparency: I really struggled to even share any of this with you; I don't want to lose anyone that I hold dear in my heart because of this job.
however, I feel in my bones that me being authentic and raw about all of this will ULTIMATELY bring the people that are meant for me: closer. And at the end of the day, it is that basic human connection and understanding that brings people closer...
so, cheers to change!!!
Natalie Bee is a Spokane, Washington-based Birth Doula and Photographer, a mother of four willings, and a PNW native.